Leaving on a jet plane, don’t know when I’ll be back again
Leaving tumblr. It’s fucking me off. I used to think that I could write whatever I wanted on here and it didn’t matter because it was my blog and if people didn’t want to read it they didn’t have to. I still think that but now writing a post and having people comment/respond seems to somehow validate my opinions. And I don’t really like that as it’s mostly all shit that comes into my head and pisses me off. It’s not really good to have such negative thoughts confirmed and reaffirmed all over again. This is particularly true for people who are far meaner than me.
What was once a place to vent my frustration/anger/thoughts I wanted to say but couldn’t, has now become a collective source of said emotions, fuelled by my posts and outpouring of negativity. It’s cyclical.
I’m not explaining myself very well but what I think I mean is that Tumblr for me has become a negative place as it holds all my bad/angry/mean/judgmental thoughts and simply spews them out all over again and most worryingly perhaps gives them credence. These are not good things about me, sure they’re not that terrible either but I still think these are the sort of things I don’t want to highlight and certainly don’t want to put out into the world, all in one place. Because surely it’s just much better to be nice?